CHAPTER XVIII.

1TILL Elizabeth entered the drawing-room at Netherfield, and looked in vain for Mr. Wickham among the cluster of red coats there assembled, a doubt of his being present had never occurred to her. 2The certainty of meeting him had not been checked by any of those recollections that might not unreasonably have alarmed her. 3She had dressed with more than usual care, and prepared in the highest spirits for the conquest of all that remained unsubdued of his heart, trusting that it was not more than might be won in the course of the evening. 4But in an instant arose the dreadful suspicion of his being purposely omitted, for Mr. Darcy’s pleasure, in the Bingleys’ invitation to the officers; and though this was not exactly the case, the absolute fact of his absence was pronounced by his friend Mr. Denny, to whom Lydia eagerly applied, and who told them that Wickham had been obliged to go to town on business the day before, and was not yet returned; adding, with a significant smile,—

5“I do not imagine his business would have called him away just now, if he had not wished to avoid a certain gentleman here.”

6This part of his intelligence, though unheard by Lydia, was caught by Elizabeth; and, as it assured her that Darcy was not less answerable for Wickham’s absence than if her first surmise had been just, every feeling of displeasure against the former was so sharpened by immediate disappointment, that she could hardly reply with tolerable civility to the polite inquiries which he directly afterwards approached to make. 7Attention, forbearance, patience with Darcy, was injury to Wickham. 8She was resolved against any sort of conversation with him, and turned away with a degree of ill-humour which she could not wholly surmount even in speaking to Mr. Bingley, whose blind partiality provoked her.

9But Elizabeth was not formed for ill-humour; and though every prospect of her own was destroyed for the evening, it could not dwell long on her spirits; and, having told all her griefs to Charlotte Lucas, whom she had not seen for a week, she was soon able to make a voluntary transition to the oddities of her cousin, and to point him out to her particular notice. 10The two first dances, however, brought a return of distress: they were dances of mortification. 11Mr. Collins, awkward and solemn, apologizing instead of attending, and often moving wrong without being aware of it, gave her all the shame and misery which a disagreeable partner for a couple of dances can give. 12The moment of her release from him was ecstasy.

13She danced next with an officer, and had the refreshment of talking of Wickham, and of hearing that he was universally liked. 14When those dances were over, she returned to Charlotte Lucas, and was in conversation with her, when she found herself suddenly addressed by Mr. Darcy, who took her so much by surprise in his application for her hand, that, without knowing what she did, she accepted him. 15He walked away again immediately, and she was left to fret over her own want of presence of mind: Charlotte tried to console her.

16“I dare say you will find him very agreeable.”

17“Heaven forbid! 18That would be the greatest misfortune of all! 19To find a man agreeable whom one is determined to hate! 20Do not wish me such an evil.”

21When the dancing recommenced, however, and Darcy approached to claim her hand, Charlotte could not help cautioning her, in a whisper, not to be a simpleton, and allow her fancy for Wickham to make her appear unpleasant in the eyes of a man often times his consequence. 22Elizabeth made no answer, and took her place in the set, amazed at the dignity to which she was arrived in being allowed to stand opposite to Mr. Darcy, and reading in her neighbours’ looks their equal amazement in beholding it. 23They stood for some time without speaking a word; and she began to imagine that their silence was to last through the two dances, and, at first, was resolved not to break it; till suddenly fancying that it would be the greater punishment to her partner to oblige him to talk, she made some slight observation on the dance. 24He replied, and was again silent. 25After a pause of some minutes, she addressed him a second time, with—

26“It is your turn to say something now, Mr. Darcy. 27I talked about the dance, and you ought to make some kind of remark on the size of the room, or the number of couples.”

28He smiled, and assured her that whatever she wished him to say should be said.

29“Very well; that reply will do for the present. 30Perhaps, by-and-by, I may observe that private balls are much pleasanter than public ones; but now we may be silent.”

31“Do you talk by rule, then, while you are dancing?”

32“Sometimes. 33One must speak a little, you know. 34It would look odd to be entirely silent for half an hour together; and yet, for the advantage of some, conversation ought to be so arranged as that they may have the trouble of saying as little as possible.”

35“Are you consulting your own feelings in the present case, or do you imagine that you are gratifying mine?”

36“Both,” replied Elizabeth archly; “for I have always seen a great similarity in the turn of our minds. 37We are each of an unsocial, taciturn disposition, unwilling to speak, unless we expect to say something that will amaze the whole room, and be handed down to posterity with all the éclat of a proverb.”

38“This is no very striking resemblance of your own character, I am sure,” said he. 39“How near it may be to mine, I cannot pretend to say. 40You think it a faithful portrait, undoubtedly.”

41“I must not decide on my own performance.”

42He made no answer; and they were again silent till they had gone down the dance, when he asked her if she and her sisters did not very often walk to Meryton. 43She answered in the affirmative; and, unable to resist the temptation, added, “When you met us there the other day, we had just been forming a new acquaintance.”

44The effect was immediate. 45A deeper shade of hauteur overspread his features, but he said not a word; and Elizabeth, though blaming herself for her own weakness, could not go on. 46At length Darcy spoke, and in a constrained manner said,—

47“Mr. Wickham is blessed with such happy manners as may insure his making friends; whether he may be equally capable of retaining them, is less certain.”

48“He has been so unlucky as to lose your friendship,” replied Elizabeth, with emphasis, “and in a manner which he is likely to suffer from all his life.”

49Darcy made no answer, and seemed desirous of changing the subject. 50At that moment Sir William Lucas appeared close to them, meaning to pass through the set to the other side of the room; but, on perceiving Mr. Darcy, he stopped, with a bow of superior courtesy, to compliment him on his dancing and his partner.

51“I have been most highly gratified, indeed, my dear sir; such very superior dancing is not often seen. 52It is evident that you belong to the first circles. 53Allow me to say, however, that your fair partner does not disgrace you: and that I must hope to have this pleasure often repeated, especially when a certain desirable event, my dear Miss Eliza (glancing at her sister and Bingley), shall take place. 54What congratulations will then flow in! 55I appeal to Mr. Darcy;—but let me not interrupt you, sir. 56You will not thank me for detaining you from the bewitching converse of that young lady, whose bright eyes are also upbraiding me.”

57The latter part of this address was scarcely heard by Darcy; but Sir William’s allusion to his friend seemed to strike him forcibly, and his eyes were directed, with a very serious expression, towards Bingley and Jane, who were dancing together. 58Recovering himself, however, shortly, he turned to his partner, and said,—

59“Sir William’s interruption has made me forget what we were talking of.”

60“I do not think we were speaking at all. 61Sir William could not have interrupted any two people in the room who had less to say for themselves. 62We have tried two or three subjects already without success, and what we are to talk of next I cannot imagine.”

63“What think you of books?” said he, smiling.

64“Books—oh no!—I am sure we never read the same, or not with the same feelings.”

65“I am sorry you think so; but if that be the case, there can at least be no want of subject. 66We may compare our different opinions.”

67“No—I cannot talk of books in a ball-room; my head is always full of something else.”

68“The present always occupies you in such scenes—does it?” said he, with a look of doubt.

69“Yes, always,” she replied, without knowing what she said; for her thoughts had wandered far from the subject, as soon afterwards appeared by her suddenly exclaiming, “I remember hearing you once say, Mr. Darcy, that you hardly ever forgave;—that your resentment, once created, was unappeasable. 70You are very cautious, I suppose, as to its being created?”

71“I am,” said he, with a firm voice.

72“And never allow yourself to be blinded by prejudice?”

73“I hope not.”

74“It is particularly incumbent on those who never change their opinion, to be secure of judging properly at first.”

75“May I ask to what these questions tend?”

76“Merely to the illustration of your character,” said she, endeavouring to shake off her gravity. 77“I am trying to make it out.”

78“And what is your success?”

79She shook her head. 80“I do not get on at all. 81I hear such different accounts of you as puzzle me exceedingly.”

82“I can readily believe,” answered he, gravely, “that reports may vary greatly with respect to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, that you were not to sketch my character at the present moment, as there is reason to fear that the performance would reflect no credit on either.”

83“But if I do not take your likeness now, I may never have another opportunity.”

84“I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours,” he coldly replied. 85She said no more, and they went down the other dance and parted in silence; on each side dissatisfied, though not to an equal degree; for in Darcy’s breast there was a tolerably powerful feeling towards her, which soon procured her pardon, and directed all his anger against another.

86They had not long separated when Miss Bingley came towards her, and, with an expression of civil disdain, thus accosted her,—

87“So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite delighted with George Wickham? 88Your sister has been talking to me about him, and asking me a thousand questions; and I find that the young man forgot to tell you, among his other communications, that he was the son of old Wickham, the late Mr. Darcy’s steward. 89Let me recommend you, however, as a friend, not to give implicit confidence to all his assertions; for, as to Mr. Darcy’s using him ill, it is perfectly false: for, on the contrary, he has been always remarkably kind to him, though George Wickham has treated Mr. Darcy in a most infamous manner. 90I do not know the particulars, but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the least to blame; that he cannot bear to hear George Wickham mentioned; and that though my brother thought he could not well avoid including him in his invitation to the officers, he was excessively glad to find that he had taken himself out of the way. 91His coming into the country at all is a most insolent thing, indeed, and I wonder how he could presume to do it. 92I pity you, Miss Eliza, for this discovery of your favourite’s guilt; but really, considering his descent, one could not expect much better.”

93“His guilt and his descent appear, by your account, to be the same,” said Elizabeth, angrily; “for I have heard you accuse him of nothing worse than of being the son of Mr. Darcy’s steward, and of that, I can assure you, he informed me himself.”

94“I beg your pardon,” replied Miss Bingley, turning away with a sneer. 95“Excuse my interference; it was kindly meant.”

96“Insolent girl!” said Elizabeth to herself. 97“You are much mistaken if you expect to influence me by such a paltry attack as this. 98I see nothing in it but your own wilful ignorance and the malice of Mr. Darcy.” 99She then sought her eldest sister, who had undertaken to make inquiries on the same subject of Bingley. 100Jane met her with a smile of such sweet complacency, a glow of such happy expression, as sufficiently marked how well she was satisfied with the occurrences of the evening. 101Elizabeth instantly read her feelings; and, at that moment, solicitude for Wickham, resentment against his enemies, and everything else, gave way before the hope of Jane’s being in the fairest way for happiness.

102“I want to know,” said she, with a countenance no less smiling than her sister’s, “what you have learnt about Mr. Wickham. 103But perhaps you have been too pleasantly engaged to think of any third person, in which case you may be sure of my pardon.”

104“No,” replied Jane, “I have not forgotten him; but I have nothing satisfactory to tell you. 105Mr. Bingley does not know the whole of his history, and is quite ignorant of the circumstances which have principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will vouch for the good conduct, the probity and honour, of his friend, and is perfectly convinced that Mr. Wickham has deserved much less attention from Mr. Darcy than he has received; and I am sorry to say that by his account, as well as his sister’s, Mr. Wickham is by no means a respectable young man. 106I am afraid he has been very imprudent, and has deserved to lose Mr. Darcy’s regard.”

107“Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham himself.”

108“No; he never saw him till the other morning at Meryton.”

109“This account then is what he has received from Mr. Darcy. 110I am perfectly satisfied. 111But what does he say of the living?”

112“He does not exactly recollect the circumstances, though he has heard them from Mr. Darcy more than once, but he believes that it was left to him conditionally only.”

113“I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley’s sincerity,” said Elizabeth warmly, “but you must excuse my not being convinced by assurances only. 114Mr. Bingley’s defence of his friend was a very able one, I dare say; but since he is unacquainted with several parts of the story, and has learnt the rest from that friend himself, I shall venture still to think of both gentlemen as I did before.”

115She then changed the discourse to one more gratifying to each, and on which there could be no difference of sentiment. 116Elizabeth listened with delight to the happy though modest hopes which Jane entertained of Bingley’s regard, and said all in her power to heighten her confidence in it. 117On their being joined by Mr. Bingley himself, Elizabeth withdrew to Miss Lucas; to whose inquiry after the pleasantness of her last partner she had scarcely replied, before Mr. Collins came up to them, and told her with great exultation, that he had just been so fortunate as to make a most important discovery.

118“I have found out,” said he, “by a singular accident, that there is now in the room a near relation to my patroness. 119I happened to overhear the gentleman himself mentioning to the young lady who does the honours of this house the names of his cousin Miss De Bourgh, and of her mother, Lady Catherine. 120How wonderfully these sort of things occur! 121Who would have thought of my meeting with—perhaps—a nephew of Lady Catherine de Bourgh in this assembly! 122I am most thankful that the discovery is made in time for me to pay my respects to him, which I am now going to do, and trust he will excuse my not having done it before. 123My total ignorance of the connection must plead my apology.”

124“You are not going to introduce yourself to Mr. Darcy?”

125“Indeed I am. 126I shall entreat his pardon for not having done it earlier. 127I believe him to be Lady Catherine’s nephew. 128It will be in my power to assure him that her Ladyship was quite well yesterday se’nnight.”

129Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a scheme; assuring him that Mr. Darcy would consider his addressing him without introduction as an impertinent freedom, rather than a compliment to his aunt; that it was not in the least necessary there should be any notice on either side, and that if it were, it must belong to Mr. Darcy, the superior in consequence, to begin the acquaintance. 130Mr. Collins listened to her with the determined air of following his own inclination, and when she ceased speaking, replied thus,—

131“My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest opinion in the world of your excellent judgment in all matters within the scope of your understanding, but permit me to say that there must be a wide difference between the established forms of ceremony amongst the laity and those which regulate the clergy; for, give me leave to observe that I consider the clerical office as equal in point of dignity with the highest rank in the kingdom—provided that a proper humility of behaviour is at the same time maintained. 132You must, therefore, allow me to follow the dictates of my conscience on this occasion, which lead me to perform what I look on as a point of duty. 133Pardon me for neglecting to profit by your advice, which on every other subject shall be my constant guide, though in the case before us I consider myself more fitted by education and habitual study to decide on what is right than a young lady like yourself;” and with a low bow he left her to attack Mr. Darcy, whose reception of his advances she eagerly watched, and whose astonishment at being so addressed was very evident. 134Her cousin prefaced his speech with a solemn bow, and though she could not hear a word of it, she felt as if hearing it all, and saw in the motion of his lips the words “apology,” “Hunsford,” and “Lady Catherine de Bourgh.” 135It vexed her to see him expose himself to such a man. 136Mr. Darcy was eyeing him with unrestrained wonder; and when at last Mr. Collins allowed him to speak, replied with an air of distant civility. 137Mr. Collins, however, was not discouraged from speaking again, and Mr. Darcy’s contempt seemed abundantly increasing with the length of his second speech; and at the end of it he only made him a slight bow, and moved another way: Mr. Collins then returned to Elizabeth.

138“I have no reason, I assure you,” said he, “to be dissatisfied with my reception. 139Mr. Darcy seemed much pleased with the attention. 140He answered me with the utmost civility, and even paid me the compliment of saying, that he was so well convinced of Lady Catherine’s discernment as to be certain she could never bestow a favour unworthily. 141It was really a very handsome thought. 142Upon the whole, I am much pleased with him.”

143As Elizabeth had no longer any interest of her own to pursue, she turned her attention almost entirely on her sister and Mr. Bingley; and the train of agreeable reflections which her observations gave birth to made her perhaps almost as happy as Jane. 144She saw her in idea settled in that very house, in all the felicity which a marriage of true affection could bestow; and she felt capable, under such circumstances, of endeavouring even to like Bingley’s two sisters. 145Her mother’s thoughts she plainly saw were bent the same way, and she determined not to venture near her, lest she might hear too much. 146When they sat down to supper, therefore, she considered it a most unlucky perverseness which placed them within one of each other; and deeply was she vexed to find that her mother was talking to that one person (Lady Lucas) freely, openly, and of nothing else but of her expectation that Jane would be soon married to Mr. Bingley. 147It was an animating subject, and Mrs. Bennet seemed incapable of fatigue while enumerating the advantages of the match. 148His being such a charming young man, and so rich, and living but three miles from them, were the first points of self-gratulation; and then it was such a comfort to think how fond the two sisters were of Jane, and to be certain that they must desire the connection as much as she could do. 149It was, moreover, such a promising thing for her younger daughters, as Jane’s marrying so greatly must throw them in the way of other rich men; and, lastly, it was so pleasant at her time of life to be able to consign her single daughters to the care of their sister, that she might not be obliged to go into company more than she liked. 150It was necessary to make this circumstance a matter of pleasure, because on such occasions it is the etiquette; but no one was less likely than Mrs. Bennet to find comfort in staying at home at any period of her life. 151She concluded with many good wishes that Lady Lucas might soon be equally fortunate, though evidently and triumphantly believing there was no chance of it.

152In vain did Elizabeth endeavour to check the rapidity of her mother’s words, or persuade her to describe her felicity in a less audible whisper; for to her inexpressible vexation she could perceive that the chief of it was overheard by Mr. Darcy, who sat opposite to them. 153Her mother only scolded her for being nonsensical.

154“What is Mr. Darcy to me, pray, that I should be afraid of him? 155I am sure we owe him no such particular civility as to be obliged to say nothing he may not like to hear.”

156“For heaven’s sake, madam, speak lower. 157What advantage can it be to you to offend Mr. Darcy? 158You will never recommend yourself to his friend by so doing.”

159Nothing that she could say, however, had any influence. 160Her mother would talk of her views in the same intelligible tone. 161Elizabeth blushed and blushed again with shame and vexation. 162She could not help frequently glancing her eye at Mr. Darcy, though every glance convinced her of what she dreaded; for though he was not always looking at her mother, she was convinced that his attention was invariably fixed by her. 163The expression of his face changed gradually from indignant contempt to a composed and steady gravity.

164At length, however, Mrs. Bennet had no more to say; and Lady Lucas, who had been long yawning at the repetition of delights which she saw no likelihood of sharing, was left to the comforts of cold ham and chicken. 165Elizabeth now began to revive. 166But not long was the interval of tranquillity; for when supper was over, singing was talked of, and she had the mortification of seeing Mary, after very little entreaty, preparing to oblige the company. 167By many significant looks and silent entreaties did she endeavour to prevent such a proof of complaisance,—but in vain; Mary would not understand them; such an opportunity of exhibiting was delightful to her, and she began her song. 168Elizabeth’s eyes were fixed on her, with most painful sensations; and she watched her progress through the several stanzas with an impatience which was very ill rewarded at their close; for Mary, on receiving amongst the thanks of the table the hint of a hope that she might be prevailed on to favour them again, after the pause of half a minute began another. 169Mary’s powers were by no means fitted for such a display; her voice was weak, and her manner affected. 170Elizabeth was in agonies. 171She looked at Jane to see how she bore it; but Jane was very composedly talking to Bingley. 172She looked at his two sisters, and saw them making signs of derision at each other, and at Darcy, who continued, however, impenetrably grave. 173She looked at her father to entreat his interference, lest Mary should be singing all night. 174He took the hint, and, when Mary had finished her second song, said aloud,—

175“That will do extremely well, child. 176You have delighted us long enough. 177Let the other young ladies have time to exhibit.”

178Mary, though pretending not to hear, was somewhat disconcerted; and Elizabeth, sorry for her, and sorry for her father’s speech, was afraid her anxiety had done no good. 179Others of the party were now applied to.

180“If I,” said Mr. Collins, “were so fortunate as to be able to sing, I should have great pleasure, I am sure, in obliging the company with an air; for I consider music as a very innocent diversion, and perfectly compatible with the profession of a clergyman. 181I do not mean, however, to assert that we can be justified in devoting too much of our time to music, for there are certainly other things to be attended to. 182The rector of a parish has much to do. 183In the first place, he must make such an agreement for tithes as may be beneficial to himself and not offensive to his patron. 184He must write his own sermons; and the time that remains will not be too much for his parish duties, and the care and improvement of his dwelling, which he cannot be excused from making as comfortable as possible. 185And I do not think it of light importance that he should have attentive and conciliatory manners towards everybody, especially towards those to whom he owes his preferment. 186I cannot acquit him of that duty; nor could I think well of the man who should omit an occasion of testifying his respect towards anybody connected with the family.” 187And with a bow to Mr. Darcy, he concluded his speech, which had been spoken so loud as to be heard by half the room. 188Many stared—many smiled; but no one looked more amused than Mr. Bennet himself, while his wife seriously commended Mr. Collins for having spoken so sensibly, and observed, in a half-whisper to Lady Lucas, that he was a remarkably clever, good kind of young man.

189To Elizabeth it appeared, that had her family made an agreement to expose themselves as much as they could during the evening, it would have been impossible for them to play their parts with more spirit, or finer success; and happy did she think it for Bingley and her sister that some of the exhibition had escaped his notice, and that his feelings were not of a sort to be much distressed by the folly which he must have witnessed. 190That his two sisters and Mr. Darcy, however, should have such an opportunity of ridiculing her relations was bad enough; and she could not determine whether the silent contempt of the gentleman, or the insolent smiles of the ladies, were more intolerable.

191The rest of the evening brought her little amusement. 192She was teased by Mr. Collins, who continued most perseveringly by her side; and though he could not prevail with her to dance with him again, put it out of her power to dance with others. 193In vain did she entreat him to stand up with somebody else, and offered to introduce him to any young lady in the room. 194He assured her that, as to dancing, he was perfectly indifferent to it; that his chief object was, by delicate attentions, to recommend himself to her; and that he should therefore make a point of remaining close to her the whole evening. 195There was no arguing upon such a project. 196She owed her greatest relief to her friend Miss Lucas, who often joined them, and good-naturedly engaged Mr. Collins’s conversation to herself.

197She was at least free from the offence of Mr. Darcy’s further notice: though often standing within a very short distance of her, quite disengaged, he never came near enough to speak. 198She felt it to be the probable consequence of her allusions to Mr. Wickham, and rejoiced in it.

199The Longbourn party were the last of all the company to depart; and by a manœuvre of Mrs. Bennet had to wait for their carriage a quarter of an hour after everybody else was gone, which gave them time to see how heartily they were wished away by some of the family. 200Mrs. Hurst and her sister scarcely opened their mouths except to complain of fatigue, and were evidently impatient to have the house to themselves. 201They repulsed every attempt of Mrs. Bennet at conversation, and, by so doing, threw a languor over the whole party, which was very little relieved by the long speeches of Mr. Collins, who was complimenting Mr. Bingley and his sisters on the elegance of their entertainment, and the hospitality and politeness which had marked their behaviour to their guests. 202Darcy said nothing at all. 203Mr. Bennet, in equal silence, was enjoying the scene. 204Mr. Bingley and Jane were standing together a little detached from the rest, and talked only to each other. 205Elizabeth preserved as steady a silence as either Mrs. Hurst or Miss Bingley; and even Lydia was too much fatigued to utter more than the occasional exclamation of “Lord, how tired I am!” accompanied by a violent yawn.

206When at length they arose to take leave, Mrs. Bennet was most pressingly civil in her hope of seeing the whole family soon at Longbourn; and addressed herself particularly to Mr. Bingley, to assure him how happy he would make them, by eating a family dinner with them at any time, without the ceremony of a formal invitation. 207Bingley was all grateful pleasure; and he readily engaged for taking the earliest opportunity of waiting on her after his return from London, whither he was obliged to go the next day for a short time.

208Mrs. Bennet was perfectly satisfied; and quitted the house under the delightful persuasion that, allowing for the necessary preparations of settlements, new carriages, and wedding clothes, she should undoubtedly see her daughter settled at Netherfield in the course of three or four months. 209Of having another daughter married to Mr. Collins she thought with equal certainty, and with considerable, though not equal, pleasure. 210Elizabeth was the least dear to her of all her children; and though the man and the match were quite good enough for her, the worth of each was eclipsed by Mr. Bingley and Netherfield.